reflection

Dear Self.. its been a while !! Seems like centuries ago that I posted on my blog but I believe that is going to change , a change is going to come , yes change is always forth coming. Change is always good but change also comes from within..in order to see a different perspective change is highly  necessary ..a lot has happened since then  but that is  life and life is full of changes and new turns and bends . I m still figuring it out, I think we all try to figure this life of so many different days out. Some learn more quick then others, I for once am learning and re learning and still haven't reached that place where i can say that i have been there and done that..dont know where to start...lots of things to say ...feeling a lot sad these past days ...its an emotional roller coaster of words ...words are such that flow in my mind  like a whirl wind of a thousand seas at once.....I am going to pen all of them from here on ....atleast i hope so , going to try to put my mind out of the box and put it on a piece of paper ...then step out and examine it and probe it  find out who i really am  and why i am and where i am heading.......to be continued.. ..

Simply complicated

I sometimes feel like I can write a book when the feeling strikes and could go on and on forever, my head fills up with so many ideas, so many thoughts.... but when I do start to put it together and think that this is it, that is when ...I hit a wall. The block in my mind  is so intense that i stare dumbfoundedly at my computer, into nothingness, blinking as what the heck am i going to write , i had the thought a min a sec ago but my mind works too fast and i lose my train of thought. I lose everything , i wonder why but that has been happening to me ever since i can remember, i have this sea of thoughts emotions waiting to be poured out on paper but im all bottled up like being claustrophobic and you dont know how to get out. I am still trying to overcome this but i havent suceeded yet. Hopefully soon i will over come this little disability with my brain that i have been trying to fight for years which may seem like a little hurdle but for me its been a major accomplishment i have been wanting to do for years. The mind is a vast horizon of adventures to explore . Here is to simply accomplishing the complicated things in life :)